Shopping

Today I got to go shopping. I am suppose to be in a good friends wedding next month, and I wont be able to make it now. So, I am making her these programs that I had made for my wedding. We needed to get some paper from Micheals, so we went there. We went to the new one in West Melbourne. It is nice in there. There scrapbook section is huge. We got some paper there, and then quickly looked at the canvases to see what we needed for me to paint some pictures for Bradyn's room...yes I love to paint! We then went to Office Depot to get the rest of the paper. Although these trips were short, it is nice to get out. I am so scared when I am out because I dont know what is going to happen. In the back of my mind all the time, is preterm labor or the hemotoma coming back. Not to be gross, but I read all the time that your discharge increases when you are pregnant, but how am I suppose to know what normal discharge looks like now??? IN my mind, I am always thinking about the mucus plug coming out or something, so it freaks me out!.. I know...too much information, but hey, this is all so new to me. My mom is out of town, so it is hard for me to explain things to her. Usually, when I am with her, i know this is gross too, but I can show her, and she makes me feel better about it all...oh the joys of being pregnant. I mean, I love it, and I love this baby boy growing inside of me...I just wish I could be a noraml pregnant lady, thats all. I know I need to just trust God, and I am doing my best at that. It is just every cramp and back ache scares me. we have an ultrasound on Thursday, which can come soon enough! I wish it was Thursday so I can see Bradyn and make sure he is healthy.

Again, thanks for all the prayers and thoughts, they mean so much to my husband and I...please continue to pray for us all.