When will this stop?

Well it is monday, and today, I am 19 weeks pregnant. I am very blessed for this. However, I was really hoping that I would have NO spotting by now. I dont know what to think. I had stopped spotting red for a while, and then last week, it started again. I am not a doctor, but I try to reason with myself. I think sometimes that if it is coming out, then that is good, it means it is shrinking. But then I think to myself, well if it is red, then that means new. So I dont know. I will find out on Thursday though if it has shrunk at all. I can only pray that it has. I know I will probably have to be on bed rest still though to make sure it doesnt get bigger and that it heals all the way. I am willing to do whatever it takes to keep my baby safe. I dont think I have ever been so scared in my whole life. We do find out if we are having a boy or girl though, so that is exciting. I think we are having a girl...and would be very surprised if they tell us we are having a boy.

Well please pray that we get good news on Thursday...I really want to be healthy and I cant wait until September when this baby will be born healthy!!!